I thought I knew
how you might feel
about me

I thought I saw
how you were real
in your eyes

But it was just
reflected will
of my mind

And though your gone,
my visions still
hount unchanged

Walk outside ,
swim the sea of people,
meet and talk

Through the door,
from crowded city streets
noise and booze

Beautiful,
sit beside her for once,
so they say

Mouth open,
but it doesn't make a sound,
what to say?

Hand reaches
but it doesn't want to touch
a stranger

How can I?
If I cannot do it
In my head

Pause,
Now reach,
Into the heart,

See?
Its them,
they need to leave

Thoughts,
feelings,
my mind is chained

Look,
its her,
she holds the chain

Yes,
I know,
"Just cut the chain"

Though,
It hurts,
It's all I have

I told the flow of time,
to slow down for a while,
to give me a chance,
to think

I need just a bit more,
to leer into my core,
to force emotions,
to shrink

So I can make a plan,
to not be overrun,
to stop my mind's urge,
to sink

Day ends, life's seas I've swum
to end, until I've come
to it, took the time,
to blink

I love the time of now,
the time before the new

I cannot grasp the how,
the why, the what, the who

But every time I draw,
my friends and me and you

Memory of what I saw,
on paper has its view

And though the time will go,
and life will change it's hue

The time of now i know,
I'll love, before it's due